A Poetry Sampling
i finally saw the real you
you may not
know itbut
i
finally saw
the real you
&
i like her
why does she
hide
in shadows of small talk & in alleys of loneliness
why does she
only come out
for accidents
or
surprises
&
other
unplanned occasions
i know
that fear
&
its evil twin
(desperation) can be
bullies of the soul
(will i ever be safe)
but
today
i finally
saw
the real you
&
i like her
the frightened girl
(no one gets me) (no one wants me) needs
a safe haven
&
the powerful woman
(in chargeclear of purpose) needs
a platform
(a cause)
both need
a firm hand
waiting smile
glad eyes
&
embracing heart
who will
be there
for the naked journey
to where
the hurt
canno longer
thrive
&
the demons
canno longer
flex
nonexistent muscles
but
only return
to the caverns
of their cowardice
because
the binds
they imposed
were
made up
unreal
&
incapable
of
keeping
the real you
from
being free
to
walk proudly
&
dance
in the glow
of your
beauty
i finally
saw
the real you
&
i like herCopyright 2013 Christopher Earl
my blanket is big enough
yes
you
arch my back
&
curl my toes
but
its not enough
as long as
you withhold
the divine
intimacyof your innermost
self
i want
the you
who yearns
&
is afraid
to let me in
the pleasures
you provide me
(now)are only
bit players
in the drama
of our lives
i want
the star
frail&powerfulbut
hungryfor love
you have
to believe
that
what
we can
have
&
be
what
i can
give
&
do
what
you can
have
&
trust
comes in
light touches
open hearts
tearful eyes
clinging embraces
&
open minds
(dropping ones guardis hard to do)
the best of you
is not
who you are
in those
rapturous interludes
(in the deadof night)but
the you
who
wants to
let me in
&
give me
her keys
&
knows
deep downthat
my blanket
is big enough
to
keep you
warm
&
safe
i would
muchrather
forgo
my release
inside youto have
your true self
release
in me
your
dark
your
light
&
your
cold
i long
to be
inside youwhen
my body
is
somewhere elseCopyright 2013 Christopher Earl
having lived my own pain
often
when i am in your presence
i feel your pain
(it’s a deep pain)accumulated over time
through
big
&
small hurts
intentional
&
unintentional
wrongs
having lived my own pain
i know
it is
(oh so hard)to take the risk
that your heart
can be
pulled & tugged
disrespected & ignored
&
sometimestaken for granted
but
consider the possibilities
by holding on
to what you have
(too tight)&
running the risk
of holding back
the beauty
&
light
you seek
what serves as the better companion
footsteps from the pastattached to a soulwrapped in prudenceor
a playful handfrom an inviting heartengaged in the questcommitted to the dreamCopyright 2013 Christopher Earl
why
why did i meet you
why did i fall in love
why did your body sing
such sweet songsto mewhy did i let you in
why did you fool me
why do i miss something
that wasn’t therewhy did you want me
why did i need you
why is hating you easier
why do i want you to go away
why didn’t i see this coming
why weren’t you ever clear
why did you betray my love
why were you so fucked up
why do i hurt
why am i not satisfiedhurting you>why do i remember the good times
why did i trust you
why are you where i did not invite you
why don’t you go away
why am i still writingabout youCopyright 2013 Christopher Earl